Rant: I've been having progressively worse knee pain in my left knee going on a couple of weeks at this point. At first I thought it was just maybe I pulled something, but it's not going away no matter what I do in regards to stretching/foam rolling, etc. Getting old(er) sucks.
Rave: I have an irritating neighbour. The kind of guy who wakes up at 5 am on a Saturday and starts drilling into concrete. The kind of guy who lights a joint while he's bending down to talk to my kid in the stroller. Just kind of an inconsiderate fuck. Anyway, he and my husband spent the morning sealing our joined driveways and I looked out the window to see him hammering a stake into the ground to string caution tape from, to keep people from walking on the newly sealed driveway. He raised the mallet, swung hard, fumbled badly and that mallet swung straight into his balls. He dropped like a stone. I've never been this happy.
This weekend I saw a sign on the road that said "Hamfest this exit". I decided to follow the sign. RANT: It was for HAM fucking radio enthusiasts. There should be a law against using the name of a cured smoked pork product to describe you basement dwelling hobby.
Rave: Just finished my first paid woodworking job! A dozen poplar wall-hanging boxes (client calls them "night stands"). He'll be picking them up tomorrow morning and giving me my dinero. And he said he wants a dozen more in a couple months, which should go a lot faster now that the trial and error is over with (I'm rusty - had a brand new table saw blade go down the middle of my right index finger about 18 months ago, so I've been gun shy about my woodworking ever since.) Belated rave: Entered a 1/72 scale Wasserfall (WW2 German prototype surface-to-air missile, first of its kind) diorama in the regional scale modelers convention recently. Won first prize in its category. Rant: Also entered a Japanese experimental plane, but didn't place. Oh well, can't win 'em all.
Rant: Are religious nutters just in the South or is this whole country swarming with them? I gotta get out of here. I just cannot relate at all and in fact, it alarms me quite a bit. I was shopping at the grocery store and this older lady in a bedazzleded Saints ballcap asked if I saw the cute Marines standing outside. About how great they are, etc. I said well, I wasn't really looking....I married one. And she goes off on a motherfucking tangent about how Marines are blessed, about how they are part of God's chosen army, about how angels protect them. What the fuck? She was talking in a very literal way, not metaphorically at all. Are they just going to be replaced by equally as fanatical loonies when they die off or will it end there? It's no wonder our country is in the shitter. These people vote.
Rant: Last weekend I woke up with my jaw being sore. (Insert dick sucking joke here.) I figured I slept on it weird and it would go away, but after a day or two it got even worse and I was having trouble opening my jaw. It just kept getting worse until any time I tried to open my mouth I'd almost start crying or throw up because it hurt so much. I was being really stubborn about going to the doctor but decided I should later this week since nothing was helping and it wasn't getting any better. Last night I was complaining about it to my friend and she says "Do you think it's maybe stress related?" Since she's been in the know for every goddamn thing that's been happening for this relentless year and a half. I say "If it ends up being TMJ I'm assuming it's stress related because I do hold a lot of tension in my jaw, but I already tried massaging the area in case it was a muscle thing and it didn't help at all." Then she tells me I should try massaging my shoulders and neck because sometimes it can get so bad it makes its way into your jaw from there. So I did, and after maybe ten minutes it was like a complete 180. It's still a little sore but I was able to eat breakfast without fighting back tears for the first time in a week, and it keeps getting better. So, on the one hand, I'm glad it's better and I didn't have to go to the doctor. On the other hand, what the fuck stress why are you doing that to me?
Rant: MOTHER OF FUCKING GOD, CBSA. WHAT IS THE FUCKING ACCESS COMMITMENT FOR WHEAT GLUTEN? JUST GIVE ME A MOTHERFUCKING NUMBER. HOW MUCH. EVERY PIECE OF SHIT-ASS DOCUMENTATION ON YOUR GODDAMNED WEBSITE IS GARBAGE. I HATE YOU AND YOUR BABIES AND YOUR BABIES' BABIES AND THE ILLEGITIMATE BABIES OF THOSE BABIES' BABIES' BABIES. FUCK OFF AND DIE.
Rave: I'm almost done with hair school. Holy shit. Rant: I had no idea this would be so challenging. It isn't difficult in the conceptual sense. I get that. It's challenging in the sense that it's an hours based program, so literally every second matters. And it's goddamn expensive. I'm 34k in the hole.
I just spent three hours being deposed and another hour yet to go tomorrow. I feel physically ill and just...defeated. All the lawyers are baffled that the case has advanced and my lawyer believes it will be dropped. I do not. I think the people suing me actually believe they were wronged and the victim of a mass coverup, despite all evidence to the contrary. The worst bit is that two years has come and gone, and at best it will be another year even if the case is dropped. It's not often I get upset, but I'm upset right now. Having someone try to dismantle your integrity hour after hour is so brutal.
Rave: Home at last, after 15 or so hours stuck on the plane and a few more on a bus I'm sitting on my comfy couch with a beer in hand. Feels good to be home. Rave: No work for seven weeks, some long service leave and a trip to Brazil, America and Canada in that time off. Beard life come at me.
Rant: Does anyone else live in a shitty town where people set off fireworks continuously from the moment they set up the fireworks tents in early June until the end of August? Because it drives me crazy. I also really hate those super CRACK-y sounding fire crackers that (to my untrained ear) sound disconcertingly more like gunshots. Especially since people are crazier when it's hot outside and so it's legitimately more likely to be gunshots anyways. Oof.
Huge fucking rave: my lawyer and the other named defendant's lawyer dismantled the case against us during depositions this week. It's one thing to be told you did nothing wrong and that the lawsuit was brought against you in grave error; it's another thing altogether when the plaintiff leaves the room in tears after admitting to not even reading the documents she signed. I don't care what people say about lawyers; having a great one who is part pit bull on your side is worth every fucking penny. I'm sitting here with no anxiety for the first time in almost two years.
Rant: I just stare into forever. I don't know why I do it, but I do it. I get up and look out over the Delaware, and my thoughts just drift. I remember what could have been, what might have been, and what should have been. I'm not good when left to my own devices. I need a band.
Rant: Went to give my fucking diabetic dog her damn insulin shot, tripped over one of my son's millions of toys, and the needle and 10 ML of insulin went right into my arm. Rave: At least it didn't hit a vein? I mean I'm not gonna die from this, right? Right??
Rant: So, the aforementioned shitshow has begun. My sister-in-law is being a total bridezilla. She's doing shit like moving every decoration, that people have helped her place, insignificant distances just to be perfect. Rehearsal dinner was last night, what a fucking clown show that was. My wife's grandfather decided not to come up from Florida. He used the excuse that he health is not good. He drives from Tampa to Alabama a few times a month to see a woman, but gets to miss this nonsense cause he's old. Liar. My wife's cousin, a grown man in his 30's, brought his own television and video games and has spent the last two days in my bed, only leaving the room to use the bathroom and be fed. That is not normal. Rave: I'm an rv owning lowlife, according to the latest WDT, and I'm camping in my driveway. This is why RVs are awesome. I only have to see these family members a few minutes a day, money well spent in my book.
Rave: Best friends engagement party is today. He found himself an awesome woman and I'm looking forward ton seeing some people I haven't seen in ages. Rant: Ive been dating my girlfriend a few years more than he has his. I expect some looks today.
Rave: Just got back Monday from a six-week, six music festival trip across the country. Got to go to Atlanta (Shaky Knees), Gulf Shores, Alabama (Hangout), Seattle (Sasquatch), Nashville (Bonnaroo), and Delaware (Firefly). Some epic things happened along the way, hoping to turn it into one really long story. Did a Reddit AmA about the trip if you're interested in some details. Rant: Broke as fuck as I catch up on bills over the next month. Really wanted to do Lollapalooza but probably can't swing it now. Oh well. Rave: Start back at the NFL at end of July. Going into third season there. Really love working there 7 months and then getting 5 months off to do the music festival thing. The balance is perfect for me right now. I'm in no rush to make more money than I do and have a sweet home setup right now: three roommates in a dope house in midcity Los Angeles that has a pool, hot tub and fire pit in the backyard. Had a party for my birthday right before my trip, had a live band and a couple DJs, was awesome. Rant: I'd like to start posting here more, Reddit is about the only message-board type place I post at anymore (other than Twitter/FB).