Rave: morphine and oxycodeine. Everything is warm and fuzzy and I'm typing.with one eye closed. If someone would bring me a puppy to cuddle life would be pretty sweet right about llnow.
Rave: (I think?) I am pretty close to signing up for Metrodash DC happening in May as a way to see where I'm at fitness-wise since I've lost some weight. Looks like fun, but pretty scary, too. Anyone have any experience with it?
Rant: Things I need to get done within a month: - Apartment for next fall - Summer internship - Revise instructions and code for my experiment - Recruit about 100 people, schedule them for lab sessions - Conduct lab sessions - Usual classwork - 3 15-20 page papers Fucking drowning.
RAVE: For the last couple weeks the graduating students at my school have been putting on their showcases, and a lot of them have been really awesome. Check out the song at 19:00... As far as I know it's an original written by the guy in the red tie. http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/21413933
Rave: oh you know just posting on my brand-new iPad, Yeah I'm pretty awesome. Rave: paleo chicken marsala and red wine.
Rant:Officially had to break up with the ridiculously adorable cute girl with the ass from the gods that fucked like an angel and gave head that caused outer body experiences. Crazy beats all, always has always will. It is one thing if the break-up was a "fine, fuck you" but the girl threw everything she knew about me at me. Told me I wasn't trying hard enough to fix the relationship, I don't care and (my favorite part) never did. Sadly enough I've been on that rodeo and it just doesn't phase me anymore. It dragged out way too long and I still have to see her tomorrow because I do owe her from a bet and a Parker always pays his debts. Rant:I think I lost my cellphone. Went to a bar because two coworkers were leaving, I wasn't even drinking because I spent all my cash already and I'm waiting for the 5am direct deposit to start life again. I sat on a chair, had 2 coworkers put their coats on top of mine. I may have put my phone in the one guys pocket who left already. If not then I'm totally fucked because I lost it on the way to the bar, or somewhere in the bar. I'm going to get another smartphone so goodbye $350, at least.
Rant: Ugh. What a couple of weeks. My ethics class in honours has us doing seminars, ordinarily the workload was supposed to be split by 3 people per group. My groups third member is awol, never showed up, at all. To fucking honours. She accepted the offer, enrolled in the classes - never showed up. So my group has to go first and we're down a member, meaning we both had to cover about an hour each. Meanwhile, we had a complicated statistics paper due 4 days after, today, actually. I just handed it in. But I'm sure it's probably a piece of shit because I've had absolutely no time really devote to it as I was too busy trying not to bomb out the seminar. I aced it (I think), thankfully. But that's the only good part. What shits me the most is all my classmates are scheduled in later weeks, with 3 people per group. So not only are their workloads lighter but they've been afforded the luxury of about 2 whole fucking weeks to work on their statistics paper and I'm sure they'll all ace the fucking things. I can't even complain because I will get "It's honours, deal with it", from my professors. I'm also pretty sure that my statistics teacher (the course coordinator) doesn't want me in the program. She's implied I got in on equity grounds. I am speculating here but if I am the only equity student (I may not be) it must be because of my disability, and perhaps I was chosen instead of another student that the course coordinator perhaps wanted. I dunno, my ethics teacher has told a student that everyone in the program is someone she wanted. So I suppose there's that. Either way, I've been getting somewhat not too friendly vibes from this coordinator for little while, and short, somewhat snarky e-mail replies when I ask her questions. She won't even give me 1 day extensions due to my disability, despite telling me 3 weeks ago that was fine. Suddenly, it's 'no extensions in honours'. Except, uhm, my ethics teacher just gave me one? Thanks for the consistency. It would suck if she thinks I'm not deserving enough to be in the program, I killed myself for 4 years to get in. And this week has been so terrible I hope I don't end up proving her right. Just, ugh. Just fuck this last week. I really hope I'm just being too hard on myself and my work. Rave: New community is out. Yes, this will do.
RAVE: replaced the screen on a netbook that decided to test the theory of gravity a few months back. RAVE: Awesome new lady-friend.
Rant: I never thought my parents and I would have one of THOSE relationships...the emotional and verbal distance...the silent judgy face, things like that. We've always been close, we've always been friends, we've always had a really good relationship. A few years ago that changed due to their backandforthwemaydivorcewemaynot bullshit. They put me in the middle of it and I told both of them to fucking end it and quit wasting time. Perhaps not the most intelligent thing to say out loud, but definitely the most honest. I still kind of think it holds true. That said, apparently we DO have that kind of relationship. And it sucks. Rave: Yum.
Rave: Hawaii was fantastic. Less beach time than I had originally intended, but I learned a lot more about the history and culture of the islands which is probably better in the long run. Super Ultra Mega Rave: Job resignation is done and it went a lot smoother than I thought it would. 2 weeks and I move onto a very exciting change of direction. Minor rant: I am starting TheWhole30 program this weekend and therefore will not be drinking to celebrate the new gig when I start there. However, I got sick of "waiting for tomorrow" to take control of my food lifestyle and just said fuck it we either can't drink to my new gig or we can't drink for my wife's birthday in May. So we picked Cinco de Drinko instead of job celebration.
RAVE: My boss just came to me for personnel advise (as I was listening to Megadeth). I am a technical manager, not HR. RANT: Fiancée having a non-PMS emotional breakdown. Synopsis: I am emotionally detached, which is good and bad.
RANT: I need workout motivation. I have decent muscle, the functional strength to carry around 50-90 pound objects on and off for 8 hours, and quite frankly I could look a lot worse for 135. That said, I want to improve myself. I want to know that I can drop and crank out 100 pushups or 200 situps or throw one of (whoever that guy on here is who fucked and ditched the fatty and bragged about it in a cunty fashion)'s dates over my shoulder and carry her around a mile. Problem is, I have no motivation when I'm workout out solo. Workout with my brother, and I'm pushing myself as hard as I can. Working out alone? Two sets of pushups and then "Meh....time to clean/play a game/ beat it". Further Rant: I started eating healthy. Walnuts, fruit, chicken/brisket/beef, all sorts of fairly healthy stuff. Apparently a side effect of this is that my shits are now much messier. It takes ten minutes to get it all out, and I'm pretty sure I'd be doing myself a favor to buy stock in Charmin.
Rant: Very close family friend, a man who is only 35, was diagnosed with stage IV rectal/colon cancer. It has spread to his liver.
Ravfe: Got the heart rate sensor and strap for my awesome GOS watch and have finally been able to go for a run with it and see what it can do. It's fucking awesome, has pretty much every stat you could want and you can save tracks and all sorts of stuff for future reference. Rant/Rave: In the next week I should find out about my transfer so I'll know one way or another what my path in life will be. There could be some toys getting thrown out of the cot in a big way if I don't get it.