Rant: Guess I won't be getting that second interview. I hate looking back at the interview with hindsight and seeing where I beefed everything. Ughh, shit is depressing.
RANT: I don't know what the fuck is going on with our world as of late but, someone or something really pissed off the powers that be. Life is short has never been so true.
Rant: It's three in the Goddamned morning, I'm in some shit hostel next to a snoring rhinoceros. Seriously, I have never heard this kind of noise coming from a single human being. Fuck this shit.
Rant: I work with a fucking moron who doesn't realize the difference between a mixture and an aqueous solution... Which, on its own doesn't make a person stupid, but when you claim to be a regulatory chemist and don't know the difference, it means you're about 2 steps removed from drooling in your fucking soup. I'm so annoyed right now.
RANT: My heart is still acting up. RANT: Contacted the doctor and I'll be wearing a holter monitor for 24 hours starting tomorrow morning.
Rant: Fucking attention whoring females who need verbal hugs and validation at every turn. Go somewhere else.
Rant: Wife has had a cold. Nothing debilitating, but its pretty much made her snore like a wildebeest at night. She woke me up at 4 AM snoring, and of course I had to wake up at 5:30 am for work. Seriously, the worst, absolute worst, part of this new job is waking up at 5:30 AM. I don't know whose idea it was to start schools so fucking early, but I want to punch them in the face. Rave: Fairly easy week has allowed me to plan out exactly where I need to be and what I need to be doing every day for the rest of the year. I also have all of next week planned already. Rave: Monday is senior-skip day, and 5 of my 6 classes are seniors, so we're basically treating it as a lost day. Tuesday is a testing day for Freshman through Juniors, while seniors visit college campuses or do community service, so once again I am not doing much of anything. Two full days that I can basically spend 8 hours planning and getting ahead. By the time those two days are done, I should be fully planned and prepared for, at least, a month. Rant: I didn't realize how far behind these kids truly were when I took over. In Econ, they have to get through 17 chapters in the book in the semester. At the midway point, they had covered 7, and the last guy covered them so poorly I had to go back and spend a week reviewing. Now, I have to cover a chapter every 3 days for the rest of the year to get through all of it. In US History, it is a Chapter every 3 to 4 days. Government, I have two major units (3 chapters each) to finish, which means I have a bit more time to actually DO stuff in those classes, but not a lot, plus I'd like to get to my unit on Politics and the Media, because holy cow do these kids not know anything about politics or government, they just regurgitate whatever their parents tell them (both liberal and conservative, resulting in pissing-contests of wrong from both sides). Long story short, Econ and History are going to be straight-lecture-classwork for the rest of the year, and I can't do any decent projects or anything that takes any kind of time, because we have zero extra time. I'll still have time to do a paper or group project or something NOT lecture-related for Government, but not a lot. Rave: Really hoping they'll keep me on next year, and when they passed out schedules, it made me fairly optimistic (they had the position I'd be taking tentatively teaching a dual credit psych course, which requires someone with a psych background, which as of now, only myself and two other teachers have. Both those two other teachers have a completely and totally full slate of psych classes already, so they NEED someone with my background). The department head said that right now they're really happy with me for the effort I've put in so far, but I know the real litmus test is going to be how many kids pass the course, so I probably won't hear much of anything for a few more weeks. Still keeping my fingers crossed. A whole summer to prepare, and the ability to actually teach the way I want, rather than what these circumstances have forced me to do, will be fantastic.
Rave: First time Vegas! Rant: Flight in four hours, and I will most likely have been up for 25 hours before I get any sort of sleep. Rave: Screw it, Vegas!
RAVE: Birthday was alright, nice and quiet just how I like it. Sushi rocks, if you go to the right restaurant. RANT: Getting old.
Rave: I needed to ship my Fender guitar and didn't have a case for it. I went to a pawn shop and they had a hardshell case that fit it like a glove. I know how expensive a good case is so I sucked it up and asked how much. $10. Fucking awesome! Rant: I shipped my guitar, amp, and two boxes UPS. $371. Mother fucking ouch. Rave: Someone had PM'd me about there being apps for Windows 8 that make it a bit more user friendly. I downloaded Classic Shell and now have a fucking Start button and Explorer and don't have to deal with that bullshit Start screen and pop up menus. There's still a ton of other bullshit I need to figure out, but this is a good start.
Rant: Earlier in the week, I made a decision - that, in all honesty, should have been made a long time ago - to finally end a very tumultuous relationship. ("Relationship" in the most general sense of the word.) I thought that the decision and the adjustment would be much more difficult and upsetting, but so far (in the four whole days since then) I've almost felt something like relief. But, goddamnit if that doesn't mean I'm still incredibly angry and hurt and upset at them. When I was allowing myself to be mopey about it for a little while, I kept seeing it as an example of how I had such optimism for 2013 and how, even though it still is only a couple of months in, it so far has just been more of the same bullshit and disappointment and things going wrong. But, actually, I realized after the fact that this was one of my Resolutions. This person and I had had a pretty brutal fight last Fall that I thought was the end, and it never really had a conclusion and I never heard what I needed to hear from them, but I decided to give them one last chance, and they blew it in epic proportions. So, I'm hoping the strength to make that decision will last more than a couple of days and I'll finally be free from all of this and, even more importantly, stick to a New Year's Resolution. Rave: When I realized I was inadvertently following through with a Resolution, I went back to look at my list (yes, I actually write down a list of resolutions and goals each year) and saw that, despite how this year has felt so far, I've actually already accomplished a few things on my list, or am about to accomplish things, or have made/am going to make the steps that lead to accomplishing more things. I've been so caught up in the big goals that have not happened and seem so far away from ever happening that I didn't notice all of the other smaller, not so flashy improvements along the way. So, even though I let myself be an Eeyore now and then for the sake of my sanity, I'm still trying to primarily look on the bright side and keep my hopes up. But it's hard because people are the worst.
Rant: This week just keeps getting weirder. I am flying to Connecticut today because of a family emergency. Rave: I will be able to see family who I have not seen in over five years. Rant: There is a lot of drama on that side of the family. Rave: I can use the time away from work.
Rave: Going to Atlantic City tonight for the first time. I guess we got VIP tickets to some club because one of the guys going is friends with Pauly D who is DJing. Rant: I do not feel like going at all. I'd like one weekend where I can just sit around and do my own thing without having something planned out in advance. All I want to do is geek out and play the new Bioshock game.
Rave: Sitting in the pub last night watching the Rugby and the trots were on another screen, horse had the name ScaryMaclary and it reminded me of the kids books I had when I was little. For shits and giggles I put a little bit on each way as it was paying 25 for the win so it wasn't a shit show in hell of winning and it fucking got up. Wish I had put more on now.
Rave: First time posting in a while. Been lurking, hope to have more time, and be back posting some more. Rave: Farmer's market cut the bacon strips larger than usual in the last pack I bought. Note, in the image, that is a double long skillet (takes up two burners and not just one) Spoiler
Rave: Went camping at Zion National Park this past weekend. My weekends had been getting very repetitive so it was much needed. Rave: Didn't become the seventh person to fall off Angel's Landing. Rant: Paper to write for grad school. Wish they would just give me the stupid degree and bit make me show up.