RANT: There was a supervisor in my old office that had some good qualities (often letting me go out and play with the anti-gang task force, not giving me shit about coming in late and staying late, letting me recommend the max on jailtime) but was sneaky in her ways of taking credit for other's work, making a name for herself on the hard work of others and hoarding all of the gang intel when she felt threatened. She was one of the reasons I decided to leave my old circuit. Well, little ol' sneak is now the top prospect to be chief of my new office when my current chief retires in a month. Goddamm it all. The other two prospects are females that are apparently two steps below Satan. Too late to transfer back to my old office now. Fuck fuck fuck. RAVE: There's an Italian deli that opened up not far from my apartment. The owners are from Hoboken, NJ, not far from my hometown. They sell fresh mozzarella by the pound, plus, as an added bonus, they knew what I meant when I said "I'd like a half a pound of fresh mutzadell, please." I scarfed away my misery with a chicken cutlet sandwich that reminded me of home.
RAVE: Its going to be in the mid to upper 60s all weekend, for the first time in god knows how long. Its a start. RANT: One of my best friends confessed that he was in love with another of our mutual (female) friends a few weeks back. Cool. However, he won't tell her, won't make a move, and refuses to address it at all despite hanging out with her, often 1 on 1, all the time. He said he "doesn't want to ruin the friendship" and he "can't afford to lose her". Sweet lord, when did I go back to HS? It would be one thing if that was it, but he basically complains about his feelings at least twice a week. Grow some stones dude, or just repress the feelings and fucking forget about it. RAVE: Playing paintball tomorrow for the first time since I was 17. Gonna shoot some motherfuckers in the face.
Rant: the sleezy, disgusting man who just called the store and got me to describe our products so he can get himself off needs his fucking nuts ripped off. Piece of shit.
Rave: My mom's surgery went very well today. Now she has about two weeks until she starts radiation for 35 days. I called my dad expecting her to be resting, but she was already out shopping and when I talked to her she didn't sound remotely groggy and/or out of it. Way to go mom! Rave: Walking into work today two guys told me to "shake that ass". So I did.* Maybe I should be offended but at my age anyone asking me to shake anything I take as a compliment. Rave: Another college tour coming up on Monday. At our last one I was with a friend of mine and her daughter. We told our girls they need to room together so we can come visit on weekends. The friend's daughter turns to her and says, "Mom, I hardly think you were the type." Oh, if they only knew... *I didn't. I just blushed and acted like I didn't hear them.
Rave: when I started boxing, I couldn't do 10 push-ups. Yes, it was embarrassing. This morning I did 100 pushups, 100 squats, 100 situps and a little weightlifting. After staying up all night on various hallucinogens, and no breakfast. I am happy.
Monster Awesome Rave: Tool were out of this world amazing. There are not enough adjectives in the dictionary for me to describe how good they were and do it justice.
RANT RANT RANT: 2 kidney stones in one week?!? Are you fucking kidding me body? This needs to stop. Mom is helping me looking for a kidney specialist. 9 kidney stones between the ages of 16 and 26 just isn't supposed to fucking happen. This is bullshit. Rave: The awesome painkillers are helping dull my irritation. Also, sex on Valium and Percocet is pretty sweet.
I'll just put this here. Facebook recipes from the size challenged: I made that one up, but you know what I mean. First, no fucking shit it's yummy, it's a normal person's YEAR'S worth of decadence in ONE DISH. Two, do people actually eat like this? Three, people need recipes for this stuff? Just mix a bunch of white sugar products together and throw whipped cream on top. It doesn't matter...it's not really food and IT'S HORRIBLE FOR YOU. Four, further evidence that multinational food companies have figured out that for certain of our US population, self-indulgence via food-like products has become a drug. Five, again, DO PEOPLE REALLY EAT LIKE THIS???
RANT: About a month back I had two episodes of severe vertigo. One lasting a few minutes, the other well over an hour. Since then, I keep having intermittent flashes of vertigo. I woke up early this morning on my back, staring at the ceiling and completely paralyzed other than able to move my arm a bit. Trying to turn my head was painful. I had a sound like my heart pounding in my ears that was going in waves from loud to deafening. I could have sworn I heard someone pounding on a door, the second burst of knocks and I snapped out of it. I felt like I was snapping out of a dream but it was so fucking real I'm pretty sure it wasn't. How often do you have a dream that perfectly merges with your waking up? In any case, I need to see a doctor. I flushed the rest of my weed, though I doubt that had anything to do with it since I didn't smoke last night, but I need to be done for a while anyway. But of course I'm currently without insurance so this will be a fun wait.
Hey y'all, been a while since I posted on the board, rather than just checking out the nudie threads: Rave: ADD meds really been helping me out over the last five months, it looks like so many of my past problems turn out to be dopamine related, and now that my neurotransmitter production has been kicked up a notch or two, it's had a few follow on effects for the better. Not only am I able to focus a lot better, but I'm also more energetic and active, I've lost something like 16kg (35lb) since December (just 3-7 kg/7-15 lb more to be where I want), my asthma and allergy trouble has improved dramatically and I'm just happier and clear minded in general. I'd had the same stuff as a teen, but because of puberty and a whole host of shit that I didn't understand at the time, it just didn't work for me then. Because mental health is such a poorly handled area in my country (as it is in many, it seems), I've wasted a lot of time. I'd been to a number of GPs over the years, but last year I finally went to one who was not only able to help, but also got me going to a psychiatrist, who not only was the only one able to prescribe me with the right stuff, but with the guy I finally felt like I was talking to someone who was way more educated than I was and actually could get it right. I mean, the GPs I'd been to were mostly good, but one prescribed me with a completely arbitrary anti-depressant with no real consideration of neurochemical function, and another told me to have a relationship. Before I found my current GP, the last one treated my asthma by giving me the max prescription; when I came in next time and told him it was still getting worse, he asked me what I wanted him to do about it. I don't want to have to take this stuff forever, but if I have to I won't complain, provided it doesn't fuck my heart up too much. Rant: Now that I can lock in and focus on stuff, I'm finding that I have to exercise a new discipline: Having to choose the right thing to focus on. Whereas before my wandering procrastination habits meant I'd get some work done by accident, now I have to think ahead to what I'm doing, lest I spend hours on something dumb. Like online rants, for example; now I might spend too long writing out some stupid post that just makes me sound unhinged.
Rave The motorcycle is up and running again, unfortunately I still have to renew the registration. I'm really hoping we don't get another snowstorms that fucks up the roads with all the salt and grit, otherwise I'll be waiting a while to ride.
Rave: I picked up a McIntosh MC250 for my office stereo system for $200. yep it needs to be cleaned up some and gone over by a tech, but for those in the know this is a solid purchase. No rants, things are pretty ok this week.
Rave: Got laid. Rave: Four times. So, so awesome. Rant: He...um...broke it? Like, there was a bit of bleeding afterwards and my pubic bone feels painfully tender to the touch. Ra.....?: The "he" mentioned above is The Dude. Apparently, I can't stop myself from rubbing my tongue all over his balls every time we see each other. This ought to turn out well. Or not. Rave: Met my benchpress goals this week!! Finally!
Rave: Woke up this morning feeling like a million bucks, definitely better than Ive felt in a long time. Maybe its because I actually had a good nights sleep or because Ive been eating much healthier lately and cut out all soda from my diet. Not sure, but I hope it continues. Rant: Found out one of my best friends tried making out with my girlfriend last weekend when we were all hanging out. She didnt want to tell me because she handled it herself and didnt want me to confront him there, but it pisses me off. This and some other stuff from the past makes me feel like Im going to have to just cut him out of my life completely.
RANT: Go fucking fuck yourself, snow. It's the 29th of April. That's almost May. THIS IS NOT APPROPRIATE!
Rant: Woke up this morning feeling like I didn't get any sleep at all last night. Rant: Just after I left for work, my wife called and said she just had a tire blowout. So, being the good husband that I am, I went over and put on her spare tire... While in a suit. Rave: We bought the road hazard policy for the tires since her car has 40 series sidewalls. Rubber bands for tires and shitty NY roads do not play well together. Tire will be in tomorrow. Rave: Cape Cod this weekend. My parents bought a place there last year, so it's time to make use of it. Rave: SEAFOOD. God damn, I love me a good lobster roll and some fried scallops!
Rave: Final GIF's posted by gogators in WDT. Good Lord. Rant: a) Wasn't filmed in my bedroom; b) no idea who she is.
Rave: Google's image search function is AWESOME. Drag an image from anywhere into a new tab while under Google Image search. BOOM, Katee Owen. NSFW
Rave: w00t! Thanks to everyone who shared how to find lovely Katee. How is this girl not a billionaire, because holy shit. Rant: Won't get much work done now . . .