Rant: Filling fell out of my tooth this morning. Rave: Called up Dental and they had a cancellation and I should come right down, walked in and got it fixed up straight away. A second filling fell out right next to the first one while she was cleaning the first one up and that got fixed too.
rant: The Mrs. broke her foot getting the Christmas decorations out of the attic, so she's now in a boot and on crutches. On a positive note, she got a Rx for painkillers that she won't take and I just got mine refilled. Hooray for opiates!
Rave: Got a promotion to management. Thank baby jesus, because I was about to lose my mind doing what I was doing. Rave: School is going well. Rave: Got a 25 year old FWB who knows what he is doing and has an enormous cock. Dear god, it's great getting laid whenever I wish and then not having to actually deal with that person out of bed. Although, said FWB may like me more than I like him. It's not the worst problem to have. Rave? I turn 33 Friday. It's not like I am old or anything, but damn time keeps flying by the older I get. Hopefully this next year goes smoothly.
RANT: Super, super, super stressful shit I shouldn't have to deal with the week of my final exam. Or EVER for that matter.
Rant: Can't sleep or eat and all this shit is starting to effect me at work. I've never felt bad for myself, at least not like this, and it's fucking pathetic.
Rant, rave? I have no idea!: I can't stop watching this Which for some reason reminded me of this. I apparently can't handle the FUNK/TECHNO!
Rave: Was walking the dog this morning and a guy passing me by on the street Guy: Do you know what time it is? Me: 6:50. Guy: This is going to sound dumb, but morning or night? Me: Morning. Guy: What day is it? Me: Thursday. Guy: This way to downtown? *The directions he was walking* Me: Yes. Now he wasn't drunk. Either he was fucking nuts or coming off one hell of a bender. Now to be fair 6.50am/pm in the winter in northern Canada, you cant tell just by looking up. The few Tib'ettes that live in Calgary can tell you what it is like in Edmonton or further north. But it sure made me laugh.
Is this horse fucking moon walking? WHAT HAPPENED To PHYSICS? WHAT HAVE I DONE WITH MY LIFE?!? IN other news, the morphine is running low.... Incase anyone wanted a source.
RAVE: There's no way the end of 2013 could get much better. Since my last post in this thread, a little under three weeks ago, I've: * entered the US as a permanent resident instead of a shitty old tourist; * had my first Thanksgiving (and subsequent turkey coma) surrounded by close friends; * accepted my first career job on foreign soil, in Maine, and * rented an apartment without roommates for the very first time. I start work Monday and hopefully (!) I can buy a car before then. If not, I'm pretty sure it'll cost me less than $15 round trip to work and back in a cab. Rant: My salary is less than half what it was in Australia. However, my rent is less than $600 a month including utilities AND internet, and beer here is half the price. So how is this even a rant? GOD BLESS AMERICA.
Rant: I know there was the usual shitting on the idea of New Year's in the other thread, but I like the idea of getting reflective around this time of year, and I've been starting to do the looking back on the past year thing recently. Overall, it was somewhere between perfectly fine and good. But, man, if I had to pick one lesson that I learned the hard way this year, it was that if there are two ways of seeing things when it comes to explaining a person's behavior, and one option is them being either an excusable or perfectly decent human being, and the other option is them being a gigantic idiot asshole, it is 100% of the time completely naive and incorrect of me to give them the benefit of the doubt and think/assume/hope that they're an excusable or perfectly decent human being. And, a lot of the time, it ends up being even worse than what I imagined in the idiot asshole option. Whether it has been the people I've talked to through work, or my bosses, or the varying degrees of relationships I've had with guys from fuckbuddy to people I have been in love with, to my friends, or even things my friends have experienced that have had nothing to do with me, I have spent so much of this year somewhere on the scale of being annoyed/frustrated/disappointed by people to being heart-wrenchingly betrayed by them. I would really rather not lose my ability to see or hope for the good in people but it has been withering away since I was prepubescent and god fucking damn this was a challenging year to keep that up and I'm kind of worried about how difficult it's going to be to do so from here on out. Rave: These past two weeks have been all sorts of an emotional rollercoaster and tonight I guess all of a sudden there was this perfect combination of exhaustion and stress and the physical effects of stress and alcohol and Feelings and circumstance so that one minute I was perfectly fine and, then, two stops into my train ride home it was like someone flipped a switch and I burst into tears in public. Like, face in hands, shoulder shaking, jerky breathing, sobs for a couple of minutes. It's a rave because a) pretty sure I've been holding that in for a while and it felt good and b) I love living in New York for so many reasons but one of them is that people can cry in public and no one gives a shit. Everyone lets you be. Barely feels awkward at all. Then I had the perfect subway nap where I woke up right before my stop and now everything's basically fine.
Rave: My back is finally better and I think I can go back to training Muay Thai on Monday. I'm nervous about it because of how bad the sciatica was but I'll take it as easy as possible and just see. Rant: I am working on a project for work that the COO of my company is sponsoring and working with me on. On Tuesday he scrapped all of the work (month's worth) that I had done up to this point (following his requests) in favor of a different direction. Rant: The above rant has along with my manager (who I love working for) quitting because his decisions being questioned and a perpetual Groundhog Day working for my company has lead to a low grade depression that makes me not want to work at all. I need to snap out of this and get my head back in Raveish:? The above have lead me down a line where I am consuming business books and trying to find a need that I can fill with my skillset that will hopefully lead to some autonomy from a 9 - 5. Ideas are coming very slowly but I have faith in myself.
RAVE: Work holiday party today, we leave at 2:15 for bowling and drinking. RAVE: Started work with coffee that had a kick. RAVE: Playing in my Fantasy Football Championship game. The guy I'm playing has all the Broncos skill players and only has the Seahawks D left. Currently he has 89 points so I have a chance! "Shiva Kamini Soma..."
RAVE!!!! Passed the first semester of nursing school. That shit was HARD. I had to fight for every good grade. This is the first time I've ever had to actually study for exams in my life and I came into this with a LOT of general knowledge. I'm really curious to know how many made it through. As of about 3 weeks ago we had lost about 14 people and I know there were quite a few on the edge before the final. RANT: Everyone says the second semester is a lot harder.
RAVE: I'm required to requal with my service weapon every year. I normally have no issue shooting and passing on the first try, but this year something got into my head and I could not pass no matter what I did. Today was my last chance before losing my job (after five tries you're terminated per policy). Passed. Thank Christ. Off to celebrate another year of job security with the boyfriend.